My Experience in this Class

My experience in this class was pretty straight. I didn't have a problem with the class. The only problem had was when I was accused of taking Dreama's paper. That really pissed me off. Other than that the class was good. I learned quite a few things in this class. I learned how to write to three different essays. The narrative essay was easy to write. The compare and contrast essay was hard as I don't know what. I never want to do another one of those but I know more then likely I will. The argumentative essay is pretty straight. I think I got the hang of it. If I worked on it a little more I would be straight. Today in class we really didn't do anything. The first part of class we reviewed each others rough draft and then discussed the final exam. After that we were just talking. People then really hit a nerve by being all loud for no reason. It's no reason to be loud when we in the same room. People are so extra now a days it don't make no sense. Seem like they don't know when to calm down. I'm beyond happy that this is week going by fast. I go home Friday. I don't know how to act. I'm just ready for Saturday. I already know it's going down Saturday. I will be at the club having a good time by being with the people I know. I also know we going to be turnt to the max. I'm just ready to have a good time. Well, ECSU it's been real this summer. I'll see you back in the fall.



Frustration

Ughhhhh. I just want to scream to the top of my lungs. I'm so stressed out and frustrated it don't make no sense at all. This paper is going to make me pull my hair out. It seems like I can't do nothing right when it comes to it. Everything I show Professor Wesley is wrong. She is a hard teacher. It's crazy that we have to have 5 pages by tomorrow and we have to finish the outline before the class is over. Jesus be a fence all around me. Lately it seems like the world is against me. I really don't know why I feel like that but I just do. I really ready to go home and be with me people that really know me. I miss my friends and family back home. I know this weekend I'm going to have a good time. I can feel it. I already know I have to go to the club. It is must. I feel like I have missed a lot. When I go back to work I don't know how I am going to act. I got to call my job today and see when I come back. This program has been a real good experience. I meet some cool people. I also meet my college best friends; Tamara and Tianna. We always together and stay doing something we not suppose to ne doing. We always have a good time. It's never a dull moment with us. We argue and talk to each other like we sisters and we knew each other for a long time. I'm really going to miss them two. I wonder how things are going to be in the fall for us. I know for sure we going to stay friends and become even closer. I guess that's it for now. I got to finish working on this paper and this outline.



Today's Thoughts

Class was straight. Those questions and essays we have to read is the boring part of the class. When I read it just puts me right to sleep. If it want long I would be good. The questions are very complex and long. They tell you do to much. Nobody has time for that. The good part about it you get an easy 100 for doing it. We took notes in class today and had a little debate about Zimmerman. One girl believes a child is not suppose to tell their parent they can't tell them what to do even if the parent want in their life. I tell my father that all the time. I don't understand why you trying to be a dad now. It's to late for that; should have been there from the beginning. Why would I listen to you when you never listened to me when I told you to be in my life? I don't think I'll ever find the answer to that. I talk to my dad any kind of way because personally I don't care for him. The things he did to my other 3 siblings, their mother, my mother and me is just ridiculous. Anyways I'm not about to get on that subject today. I like writing blogs now. I can express myself in ways I didn't know I could. It seems like when I start typing and listening to music I just get in this zone. The source I'm using for an arguable claim is issues of causation. The cause is not having a father in your life and the effect is you can't have a great relationships. I did some research yesterday and it's a lot of information about this topic. I found a good article and what the person was talking about really knew what they were talking about. Everything they were saying was true. I need to look at examples of how to write an essay like this. I need some good ideas on how to get started. Hopefully it's easy writing this paper but we will see.

 



7/18/13

Today in class was okay. That argumentative essay we read in class was so long and very boring. We have to write an argumentative essay and it has to be eight pages long. We have to use Sula as evidence. Our teacher put up themes and we had to choose from them. When I seen absent fathers I knew I wanted to do that one. I choose that one because I can relate to it. My father has never been in my life and probably don't have plans on it either. Not having a father effects me a lot when it comes to certain things. I think it effects me the most when it comes to relationships. I feel like if my father was in my life I would know what type of boys to date. I feel like Sula was the same way. I can relate to her. Then again I don't because I don't sleep with everybody. I think if my father was in my life I would be straight. It hurts me sometimes when people talk about their dad and all I can say about my dad is a dead beat , a felon and stay in and out jail. I wonder if he ever think I wish I could be in my kids lives. Every time I ask him why he not in my life or my sisters he always say it's my mama's fault when its not. I just wish he would take some responsibility then again its to late for him to do that. I don't think any mother should tell their children's father that he need to be in their kids life. The father should already know that. You was man enough to make the child; you should be man enough to take care of it and be in its life. I think this paper should be easy for me because I can talk about a lot on that topic. I know for evidence the internet is going to help me out a lot. I really hope I can get eight pages if not I will be highly upset at myself. Its no reason for me not to get eight pages when I know I can talk about this topic strongly. I know I can say that women can't have a great relationships without their father in their life and women can still have great relationships without their father. I think my essay should be very interesting. I'm going to ask my teacher is that how am I suppose to do my essay like that. I hope so. The crazy thing about this is I was just talking to my best friend about this same topic. I wonder if I can ask other females whose father is not in their life how are their relationships with men without their father in their life. I also need to ask my teacher about do I have to retype my first paper since she didn't get it. I know I sent it because I seen where it said something about it has been submitted. I even got Tanasia to help me send it.I think its crazy the teacher got hers but didn't get mine. I don't get it at all. Its very frustrating. I know for sure I'm going to mange my time wisely when it comes to writing this paper. I don't want to be up all night writing this paper like I did with the last one. I have to motivate myself to do better and I know I can do it!

My Thoughts about Children and the Internet

To me it's a a problem then again it's not. I would say it's problem because children get on the internet everyday and some don't. I think it's also the parents fault. They should give their kids a limit on how much time they spend on the computer. Seems like all kids want to do is play video games and be on the web. I wonder if they ever think is this getting boring or I could be doing something else. Some kids are obsessed with video games like it's the only thing they want to do. If kids spent as much time studying or exercising like they do on the web and video games everything would be okay. Some parents wonder why their kids are big. I'm disappointed in the parents because they know better. I guess parents just don't care about their children health and that's a shame. Class was okay today. It was a lot going on. I'm just ready for this program to be over with. I'm beyond ready to go home. I can't take this anymore. Seems like everyday just gets worse and worse. I know we only got a week left but I don't know if I can take it. I'm tired of certain people. They really getting on my nerves. I just wanna go home back to my old life. Hopefully in the fall I don't have to see some of these people anymore.

1965

This is the last chapter in the book. I'm so glad that I'm done reading this book. Well, I can admit that the book was good and interesting. I really enjoyed the details in the book. Sometimes I wonder what would the bottom would be like if Sula was still alive. I don't think things would be going like they are now. The women in the bottom would probably still be all over their men. When Nel went to go visit Eva you could tell she was nervous. I know I would be nervous because I wouldn't know what to expect. It's hard facing someone after not talking to them for a long period of time. What I really want to know is how did Eva know about the secret. Nobody was around when it happened. When she would have told me I know about the secret; I would have lost my mind. I know for sure I would be asking plenty of questions trying to figure out how she knew. When Nel called out Sula's name after she left from visiting Eva she must have missed her. I guess she felt like she needed Sula or needed her comfort. I wonder if Sula was alive would her and Nel be friends. Once I think about it I doubt because of the way Nel walked out on Sula in the room. I felt bad for Shadrack since he as nobody. I really wish in this book he could have found somebody or moved out the bottom. I think if he had a better life he would be okay. That would really make the book interesting to me. I also wanted Nel to find somebody who would make her happy and she would get remarried. In class today we took the quiz on this chapter. How did I do ? HORRIBLE! I know for sure I failed this quiz. I didn't understand it and I really couldn't read the chapter like I wanted to because I was really focused on that paper. I learned my lesson. I really need to start managing my time wisely. I was up to three in the morning trying to get everything right. I never want to do that again. I'm so sleepy and cranky. I'm ready for class to be over to take a good nap. It want be a long one because I got to go to math class. I really don't need to be taking a nap because I got a quick nap. Guess I got to take an hour nap and study for like twenty minutes. Summer program is almost over and I'm so excited. I'm beyond ready to go home. I'm also ready to go back to work and I have never been ready to go to work. I know I'm going to miss some of the girls. All of us made a tight bond. I'm ready for the fall to link back up with them. I know for sure we going to keep in touch because that's how close we are. I would have never thought I would meet some cool and amazing people. I really think we could all be friends for the rest of our lives. Just got to see what the future holds for our friendship.

1941

The Bottom finds out about Sula dying. They were excited that she was dead too. Some of the community went to the funeral just to show their respect but some didn't. When she died good things were suppose to happen. The Bottom started receiving some bad weather. It was very strange. The wives in the bottom stopped catering to their man because they didn't have to worry about Sula anymore. Teapots mother beat him because she made him something to eat and he didn't eat it. People in the community came down with different illnesses since the weather was so bad. Some people were missing out on their wages because they couldn't go to work. When it talks about Shadrack I really like the fact she expressed how he felt for once. I got a little sad when he talked about Sula. He actually cared about her. I feel like he should have told her he felt but he couldn't. You could tell that Shadrack felt some type of way about Sula's death when he decided that he didn't want to do march for  National Suicide Day. I wonder what gave him the courage to actually finally decide to march. I don't think he should have vandalized that site. I see where he coming from though. I guess he was tired of them not giving blacks jobs. I was salty when they said the Deweys drowned. I would have never thought they would die. I want to know why the author put so many deaths in the book. The deaths were crazy too. I wonder who is going to die next. I hope nobody does. In class we started working on our thesis. This paper is so hard. I really wish we didn't have to use characters out the book. I think it would be easier if we could pick who wanted to do. I need a lot of help on this paper. If not I know for sure I'm not going to get a good grade on it. Then the rough draft due on Monday. I just can't deal. I'm ready for this to be over with. I feel like I'm going to be up all night writing this paper. It's five pages long too and we can't use the word you, we and I. I don't know what I'm going to do. Time will tell even though I don't have a lot of time.

1940

When I started reading this chapter I was confused. I think I was confused because of the way it started it off. I wanted to know who was having the conversation. It threw me off a lot. Sometimes when I read this book I end up getting confused. This book can be very confusing at times. You really have to pay attention to what you read and whats going on in the book. If you don't you will get confused. I wanna know how Sula got sick. Did she get an STD for sleeping with different men. I think the author should have told us. It would have helped a lot. I don't think it was right how she left us hanging like that. Nel surprised me in this chapter. I can't believe she helped Sula out after what she did to her. I guess she still cared about their friendship but I don't know why. If my friend did something like that to me I don't think I could forgive her. I think that's why I really don't have friends. If I do have friends I would rather hang with boys than girls. Girls are drama and I don't have time for that. I already have a hard time trusting people and more people are backstabbers anyways. I didn't understand how Sula got comfort from looking out the window Eva jumped out of. I wonder what she thought about when she looked out the window. Sula pissed me off when she said she enjoyed watching her mother burn up and she would like to see it again. Why would anybody say that? Sula is a person that you'll never understand even if you tried to. I was proud of Nel when she asked Sula those questions. The fact she couldn't answer the questions made me feel some type of way. Sula also pissed me off when she said "you act like I killed him when I just fucked him." Why would your so called best friend say that? From the looks of it Sula was not a good friend and she didn't care about how Nel felt. When Sula died I was shocked. I didn't see that coming at all. I was completely shocked. The way she described the pain she felt was very disturbing. I felt bad for Sula and then again I didn't. I wouldn't say she deserved to die and I wouldn't say she deserved to go through the pain she went through. All I know is you reap what you sow and that's what happened to Sula. In class we presented our glogs today. I was so nervous. I hate speaking in front of people. I feel very uncomfortable and I feel like I'm going to embarrass myself. When I presented I felt like nobody liked mine. I thought that way because of the way people were looking at me. It felt like all eyes were on me and I did not like that. This essay we writing about in class is hard. I don't know who to talk about. I got a few people in mind but I keep running into a brick wall when it comes to thinking of my main ideas. I really need Prisicillia's guidance on this one. I know she can help and when we have study hall I'm going to get all the help I can. I can't afford to fail this class and have to retake it. That's very embarrassing and I don't want to disappoint my family. I know I can do better and I know i will.

My Take on 1921

My View on 1921

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

My Take on 1921

1921 makes me feel some type of way. It was a lot of different things going in this chapter with different people. These characters had a lot going on with themselves. I actually like what Eva did. Its takes a real woman to live her kids for 18 months. I felt like she had to do what she had to do to survive in this cold world. I don't anybody else would have did that for their children. It actually takes a lot of courage to leave your children behind like that. I guess she knew that her kids were going to be safe with her next door neighbor. She also had a lot of courage to get that compacted by bowel out of baby Ralph who she called Plum.It was messed up for Boy Boy just to leave her like that with all those children and she had to take on the responsibility to be a struggling single parent. Now a days seems like it's a lot of single parents raising their kids without their children's father and that's sad. If you can lay down and make the baby you should be able to take care of that baby you made. Men don't realize that for some reason. It was very rude of him to visit Eva and not ask about the kids and then on top of that bring his girlfriend with him and not even introduce to her to Eva. I really want to know what did she do to get  $10,000. I don't think I'll ever find out. It will always be a mystery that will not be solved. Eva is kind and loving person who takes care of people that she care about. Building that house and adopting the three Dewey's was a nice gesture. It's like she was giving back to the community and helping anyone she could . I think it's cute that the three Dewey's didn't know each other and they became close, like they were real brothers and that they grew up together. Tar baby was an alcoholic. Seems like he did was drink. Well, that is what he did all the time in his room. Hannah is just nasty. It's okay to flirt with men but it's a totally different story when you sleep with every man she flirt with. She didn't have any class for herself and she seemed to be okay with that. When Plum came back from World War I he was different. The war affected him. You get use to seeing things you have never seen before will probably make you go crazy. He became an heroin addict. Eva poured kerosene on him and burnt him to death. I could not burn my own child. I don't think I would have the guts to do that. Like that takes a lot for a person to do that. I wonder how she felt about that because I know for the fact I couldn't live knowing that I killed my own child. I wonder what 1922 is going to be about. I can't wait.

1922

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

How I feel about 1922

In this chapter I learned how Sula and Nel was different. They both have different personalities. I guess that's what makes them best friends. Seem like they both love attention. Since they don't get attention at home they want to find it somewhere else. When the boys complimented them they felt good about themselves. I guess you can say they were feeling themselves. I didn't like the fact that those catholic boys were harassing them. Segregation was going on so I kind of expected that. I felt bad for them because who wants to go through being bullied. Nobody! I know Sula was embarrassed when she pulled that knife out and ended up cutting the tip of her finger off. I can only imagined what her face looked like. Them boys left her so alone after. I guess they assumed she was crazy. I don't understand how Hannah love Sula but at the same time she doesn't like her. If that's the case she might as well not like her. To me Hannah is being real fake. I know Sula's feelings was hurt when she heard that I know my feelings would be hurt. I wouldn't be able to look at her the same because I know how she really feel about me. My heart dropped when I read that Chicken Little slipped out her hand and fell into the river and drowned. I want to know why they didn't go get Chicken Little or try to save him. They could at least held a stick out to him and he could have tried to reach for the stick. Matter of a fact they could have ran for help right when they seen him fall into the river. I don't get why she ran to Shadrack to express her feelings. I don't think I would go express my feelings to a drunk. Then again I might because they say when you're drunk that's when the truth comes out. I guess it depends on what the situation is. Before she took off to Shadrack she should have grabbed her belt instead of leaving it behind. They could use that for evidence or ask her what was her belt doing at the river where he drowned. I couldn't go on living day to day knowing that I was the reason an innocent child drowned. I would lose my mind and end up telling somebody. When I read that Sula cried at the funeral but she didn't feel any guilt made me think she is a cold hearted person. I would have been like Nel I would feel guilty at his funeral because I know the real reason of his death. I wonder if they will ever tell anyone what happened or will they keep that secret to themselves. Guess I have to continue my reading.

1923

Friday, July 5, 2013

My Expressions about 1923

OMG! 1923 was too much for me to take in. When I read this chapter I don't know how to feel. It makes me feel a type of way that I can't explain. I don't think I could go through the things the people go through in this chapter. If I was living at this time I know I would go crazy. I think the thing that got to me is Sula watched her own mother burn. I would not just stand and watch my mama burn. I know for a fact I would try everything in my will to put that fire out. Even though my mother and I don't get along I would still be there no matter what. My mama is my heart. I love that woman to death. She can do this and that but I still love her no matter what. She's a single mother and she raised my sister and I by herself. I learn each everyday you have to appreciate what you got before it's too late. I wonder how Sula feels about not having her mother around anymore. I don't think she care because that's the type of person she is. I feel like she only cares about herself. If I lost my mama it would be the end of the world for me. I would have a hard time moving on with life not knowing that my mom is not there. It's hard for me right now to be 5 hours away from her. Its something I'm trying to get use to. Eventually I will but as for now I don't think so. Eva to me has a lot of courage. To throw yourself out of window takes a lot courage. I would have did the same thing if I was Eva. Class is going okay. I need to get my grammar under control. For some reason I'm having a hard time with it. I don't seem to know why. I don't know what to do about it. I could start studying more or get some help from someone. One thing I know for sure I need to start managing my time better than what I do now. I think by doing that it would help me out a lot. Lately I been stressed out. Things are bothering me. I'm in love with someone and I like someone. I'm torn between the two. That's all I have to say. Until next time...

1927

Monday, July 8, 2013

1927 Thoughts

 

1927 was very boring to me. I think the only thing I liked about it was that Nel was getting married. I think it's so cute that she is getting married. On the other hand I don't like the fact that he not getting married because of love. It's rude that the man she is marrying only wants to marry her; so, he can feel like a man. What does marrying someone has to do with being a man? You can be a man and not have to be married. I feel like he has low self-esteem. He probably already had issues between himself. I wonder how their marriage is going to be. For some reason I don't feel like Nel wanted to get married. I think she did it just to make him happy. You should make yourself happy before you make someone else. I wonder if their marriage is going to last. I feel like it's not since they didn't get married based on love. Helene feels some type of way. I understand where she coming from though. If I only had one child I would feel very emotional. My baby is leaving the nest and she starting a new chapter in her own life. I couldn't believe that Helene was a tipsy. It just don't seem like that is something she would do. To me I really don't think Sula care about her friendship with Nel. If she cared about it she would have told her good bye. Sula is a real rude person. Sometimes I kind of think I can be like Sula sometimes. I have some of her characteristics. We both mean. I'm ready to see what part two is like I hope it's very interesting. The quiz we had in class I know for a fact I probably failed it. I read the chapter and I still don't know how I could fail it. I guess I forget what I read. I need to start highlighting the important things in the chapter. If I did that I feel like that would help me out a lot. I can't afford to be failing no more quizzes. I know I can do better and I have to push myself to do better.

1937

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

What's Going on in 1937

Too much happened in this chapter. I'm still trying to take it all in. I'm very disappointed in Sula, Jude and Nel. The things they did in this chapter really caught me off guard. Let me start with Ms. Sula. I'm really tired of her. The things she do is so beyond uncalled for. I look at her different every time I read a new chapter. She came home and thought she was all of that. She is far from all of that. She kind of made me mad when she was talking to her grandmother any kind of way. She was very disrespectful. For her to put her in nursing home was terrible. She knew better to do that. Jude on the other hand is far from a man in my eyes. The conversation Sula and Jude had in front of Nel was truly disrespectful. Nel need to learn how to stand up for herself. She need to get a backbone. I'll be glad when she do because I'm tired of her letting people run over top of her. When Nel found Jude and Sula having sex she should have went off. She could at least screamed, dragged Sula by the hair from the bed, beat her up and etc. I can't believe she didn't do nothing. I know if I found my man sleeping with my best friend all hell would have broke loose. If Sula and Nel become friends again I'm going to be highly upset. I don't think I would want to finish reading the book. It's no way possible you can be friends with someone after they did something like that to you. I'm very interested to see what happens. I got some questions running through my head about whats going to happen. I just gotta wait to see. 

1939

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

The Craziness in 1939

Reading 1939 was okay. It was very long chapter. It got boring for a while and in the middle of the chapter that's when it got interesting. I'm glad that Sula decided to leave Jude alone. If she would have kept messing with him I would have been highly upset. I couldn't imagine sleeping with white men. I guess you gotta do what you gotta do to make it. It's not normal for black women to sleep with white men. I wonder what made her decide to go that far. I think it was funny that Teapot's mama thought Sula pushed him off her front porch. Teapot's mama should have known that it was her fault that he fell. If she took care of him like she suppose to it wouldn't have happened. She changed after he got the hospital. It's crazy that they thought Sula killed that man by walking by him and he choked on hat chicken bone. Sula was always in something. When Ajax and her started sleeping together I couldn't believe it. I was shocked. I didn't think he would sleep with her after he use to pick on her when they were younger. Something that pissed me off was that Sula didn't feel no remorse for sleeping with Jude. She thought it was okay because Nel and her shared everything. I don't care what they shared. She truly crossed the line when she did that and she knew better. Sula is the type of person that wants attention all the time. I can't stand people like that. I mean you a grown woman now which means you need to start acting like one. I think Sula finally felt how Nel did when Ajax left her. She should have known from the get go that Ajax wanted to sleep with her and that was it. That was her fault she got her feelings hurt. If you know you going to catch feelings while having sex with someone you shouldn't do it. That's why it's called friends with benefits. You don't catch feelings. You just have sex and that's it. Sula will realize one day that sleeping with everybody is not going to get her anywhere in life. To be honest I'll be happy when she do. I think she finally got the picture at the end of this chapter. That she knows what it's like to have a broken heart. In class we talking about writing an essay that compares and contrast two characters out of Sula. I don't know what characters I want to use. I feel like everybody is going to use Sula and Nel. I thought about using them two but I want to be different from everybody else. If I use other people beside them it's going to be a challenge. I don't want to make it hard on myself because I know that I'm not that good at writing essays. Then again it would be nice to challenge myself because I know I could do it. I'm scared though. We'll see though. I', going to ask Priscilla and see what she has to say about this.